the other side...

Hmmm! Well, it has been quite a while... actually, I forgot for a while about this blog! Who really cares about my ramblings... sometimes, I don't even care. Truthfully, life has been so busy... since the last post I have done a year of treatment(for melanoma), had it "reoccure", 6 weeks of radiation, moved into a new house, served as president of Junior Auxiliary and had a grand total of 10 PET scans... and now here it is February 15,2010 and I am 2 years and 1 month completely cancer free!!! It can be a little undoing to think that number.. because that means that my family has lived this bad dream for 3 1/2 years. I really had a moment yesterday with Greg and Noel... there was a "youth/parent" workshop @ church... we had to share with our child the worst day of our life... I watched my precious husband come undone over me... and "that day" when I had to call him and tell him that I had cancer. He was @ market in NC and couldn't get home... I was alone-but, so was he! We are so shortsighted... I saw the pain in his eyes all this time later-sometimes we don't think of the ones around us and how they are processing our "stuff." Then my 12 year old son was asked to pray over me... as he did, he thanked God that I was well... My men are so precious and kind.. I cannot imagine a moment without them!!!

I have been busy and I enjoy that ... but, I really need some direction. I feel a tug at my heart and know that there is something else out there that God is going to use me for... just haven't found it yet! I am seeking and searching wanting this girl's life to be what God wants it to be... This weekend was eyeopening... what I am good at-what I want to do with my life-what God wants me to do...