One week and a day after surgery I went out in the real world... Of course, I had to catch a ride CAUSE THEY WON'T LET ME DRIVE YET!!! We(my doctor and me) are going to talk about that today... I have an appointment with my surgeon today at 1:30. I am so at peace that it actually frightens me a bit. GOD has been so big and present on all of this journey that I am frightened by the memories of the times that I thought that I could "handle it myself." We are so quick to try to "fix" our stuff and really we just need GOD!!! I gave Him the control of this journey and so far HE is a much better driver than I could ever be...
So many people are rallying around reminding me that I am loved... just as I am. And it makes me realize that when I feel like it's me against the world... it's not! GOD has blessed me so much with an incredible network of friends and family(blood and spiritual) that it brings me to tears... daily!!! I was blown away by the love and support I felt today at this meeting I went to... I know that GOD has healed me but I also know that all the prayers that have been uttered on my behalf were a HUGE part of that... I truely feel blessed more than words can express!!!
I saw one friend that had thyroid cancer a couple of years ago... She said something that has had me thinking... I can give all the details about every procedure and result ... treatment .. healing ... surgery... You name it.... I can give you the detail!!! But, the word that I have not uttered about myself .... is the "c" word... Melanoma-sure! malignant melanoma- not a problem! but... here I go(if typing it count) cancer... I had cancer!! Yuck! my fingers are actually shaking as I type... there is something very scary about that word... I have been a little difficult to live with the past couple of days and I think that may be part of it... As I realize that this really has been a big deal!!! I really could be sicker than I am... but, do you know why I am not???? GOD ANSWERS OUR PRAYERS!!!! GOD is the great physician... I am healed because of GOD's love and mercy!!
All of this gives me a new perspective on my life... it is fragile and I am going to treat it like it matters... My body, mind and soul... There will be more "me" things that I do... (as long as the redheads are good) and there will be less fretting over the things that I have no control over...I WILL turn it all over to GOD and he can handle it... I see life in a different light now... Not as if it over or will last forever.... I see it how GOD means for us to... Fleeting... we are only promised right now... My aunt sang this song "One Day At A Time" and those words are ringing in my ears right now..
One day at a time, Sweet Jesus,
That's all I'm asking of you
Please give me the strength
To do all the things that I have to do
Yesterday's gone, Sweet Jesus
And tomorrow may never be mine
Just give me the strength
To live one day at a time.
That powerful chorus... that is my new theme... Keep it in the day we have... It is a true gift...
hey, I almost forgot to give the daily elephant report....he is packing his bags and moving to a new home... WEAR SUNSCREEN!!!!
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