Well, aren't we cute... this was our Christmas card picture this year... we usually do just the redheads but I caved in and so... here WE ALL are. Not a bad picture.. Noel's friend,Graham, may have found his calling in life... he did a great job on this one!! Gracias, Graham-y T. Christmas was great in a didn't feel like Christmas kind of way... Weather: not cold! Decoration: not great.. house for sale and did not want to "clutter" it up! Mood: good and very thankful ... just not really peaceful... kinda' like there was something off... I think that it is the fact that we know that my treatment begins on January 8... and, none of us really know what to expect... The hardest part for me is when people say," You look so good!" Like I am supposed to look sick and I don't... Because... I am not sick!! God is bigger than what we think is "supposed" to be. Also, I am not real good with the "people doting on me" thing... I am better with the "doting on others" thing... It is hard for me... to relax and let others be the ones giving and me be the one receiving.. Working on it .. not there yet but working on it...One of the things that Santa got me was a book, Praying the Names of GOD by Ann Spangler. I have wanted to study them for a while(and the names of Jesus) and thought that this would be a great time to do it....Each guide is 6 months worth of study... there are my 12 months... I cannot wait until Monday... I am really looking forward to the next year in a really weird way... I always feel like I have to be in the MIDDLE of whatever is going on... and this treatment thing is giving me an "excuse" to sit in the back of the bus and just ride for a while... My sweet husband has told me on MANY occasions to slow down.. take care of Susie... blah! blah! blah! and recently he said(several times) "God has let this happen to SLOW YOU DOWN!!! You were not going to any other way!!" and ... I really think he's right! Ooooo, did I type that out loud!?!?
I can't wait to see what we all learn at this house during the coming year... We are on the count down now... We are 25 minutes from the last day of an interesting year... and the one that is stretched out before us... It will probably be a doozie too!!
Thank you, Lord that you know what is going on and I don't have to be in control of everything... Teach me to remember that you are Yahweh Yireh (the Lord will Provide) and Yahweh Rophe ( the Lord who Heals) and above all you are my Abba (Father). How I love you ... thank you for all that You are and all that you are teaching me to be. Amen
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